Well, going blonde has been quite an experience for the kittyman.

I shall relay a few comments, after my own.
I, for one, am enjoying the post 60 bit of naughtiness.
I have never in my life done anything so dandy as this.
But I think it was about time to.

I like my look as a blonde. A shocker when I look in the mirror, but hell, why not?\
My reactions at work, where I have been lurking silently for 12 years have been amusing, to say the least.

I am becoming more at peace with any direction I take at this point. I am 60yo, and by God, I can do most anything I wish to.

Some comments................

"OMG, I did not know you were in chemo. Will it all fall out too??"
"Hey, queer bait...........(explective deleted)"
"Hiya, Blondie........."
"Damn........Mark...............WTF???"
"Hey, now we are gonna have to call ya Sunshine, eh?"
"You know this ain't gonna get you any dates?"
"You are soo cute as a blonde."
" You show 'em all, Mark..."
"Who is doing your hair??? I love that shade................"
"Oh, mffffffffffffff...............what...............oh, God"
random giggles..............
"Blondie"
"Sam Shady"
"You???Blonde??? Gimme a break."
"Why the F..........are you gone crazy???"
"Damn, Sugar, you look so fine, finally got down to your roots, eh?"
"If we wanted sugar heads around here, we would have hired them in the first place."
"After all these years, why didn't you just say you were a poofter?? I always wondered."

Had to hold off a few that wanted to pet me down just to see what it felt like.
It actually does feel rather silky.........meow.

And the award winner goes to.........
From an African American 'friend'.....
"Quit trying to be so danged n+++er, you white bit==..........you hurting my reputation."

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

When it all comes down to it, I am not anything you know.
If changing my hair color comes to possible blows, then this is a real problem.
I can post as a white male, about 62, a black male, about 45. A white female, 26. A white male, drunk and lost at 17.

What part of my humanity is it that you do not understand?
My arrogance? My anger at being part of the human experiment that I have no control over?
Oh, my anger at being born is quite evident.
I don't wish to be here any more than you wish me to.
I belong on kpax. You all must know that by now.

I was not meant to be here. I should not be here. Why AM I here.

I am a very confused old man. I have perused the mysteries of life from my perspective for many years now, and yet i have no answers. I need to go home. And if you even have one iota of understanding of what if have said for all of these years, my home is not of this world or on this planet.

So sorry to have wasted you time for all of these years. I shall now leave you to go off on the one last chance I have.

Meow.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

And I do not have to go to work tomorrow.
And I shall not have to face them.

Just like a hundred other faces I shall not have to face tomorrow.

You see, it's quite like this...........
A short clip from a movie I admire a lot.
You watch and decide.
Who is the agressor, and who is the innocent one?

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

I dunno.

If I had a million in the bank and did not have to count on working out the rest of my life to have a living.............
I should like to walk down the shop at work and play this on my back...............
How do you like me NOW?
But, that stage has already been played, and I am not ready to go that far.
I just did a thing that I have always wanted to do. Simple thing, blonde hair.
God forbid I should wish to take it further.

And if only I had enough money that I could have Joan back me up and waltz down the company hall with me. And tell them all off.

Androgynous me. Oh, my.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Good find......................More to come.
I am looking for better yet.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

I am 60yo now.
I am searching for things in my soul untouched or not recently touched.
Just going beyond the blonde hair now.

IT's just a matter of trust.
Trust in my soul to turn me in the right direction at times.
A kindred soul once told me.........Mark...........follow your dreams.
That would have been Billy Joel one night after a concert in Milwaukee.
Yes, I used to go to a lot of shows. Not so anymore.

I always did try to follow his advice after that...........
Just a matter of trust.

I have learned in the past few days that breaking through the brick wall ain't that hard.
You just run at it full force with your head down. And suddenly you are on the other side of a wall you previously thought was impenetrable. And damn, there are some fine things on the other side of it.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

A song that makes more sense now.............way more sense when you listen to the lyrics.

Landslide.
Take this mountain and take it down.
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills, well, the landslide will bring it down.

Side note.............
I once met Stevie Nicks after a show in downtown Illinois.
She it sooooooooooooooooo tiny, I mean, such a small gurl with such a large voice.
I am only 5 foot 9, and she came up to my chin. And such large eyes.
Meow.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

By the way.............
Just so's ya know.
Think I am always speaking outta my butt.....hissssssssssssssssss.

Stevie is 5 foot 1 inch tall.
I could kiss the top of her head standing barefoot.
And I did. Several times.

I been around man, been around.
Had a wild eyed youth. Nothing ever stopped me. Cars, wimmen, whiskey, the police, nothing stopped me.
Ran circles around anything and anyone who dared me. Won every time.

And old age ain't doin' much to me neither. I still feel about 95 percent of the hell bent for leather teenage SOB I always was. And am. I am not gonna stop until I drop.

I do at times, wind a crazy tale around the truth that I have lived. Not many, just enough to open the EYES, son.
But we can play truth or dare any time you like, and I shall win hands down without cheating.

And old bar running friend once said..............
Harv (my nickname is Harvey, if that has not already come out somewhere)
He says Harv, you know we are a couple of hard asses, but I'll bet you this.
Neither one of us is gonna die in a gunfight in a saloon with a shotglass in our hands.

We are both gonna die of a heart attack on the shitter.

And I take my potty time very carefully since then...........LOL.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

I am the subject of this song.
Neil sang it for me.
Never met him,but I know he did.
Except for the names and a few other changes, the story is mine.
Never been to LA.. I have been more than a few other places.

I am, I said, to nobody...........
I am, I cried.
I am I said.
And nobody listened. And I don't even know why.

And I am lost.
And I cannot even say why.
Leaving me lonely still.



Breaking from the song lyrics for a bit.
And dead stop here now.
For I cannot find the words to explain.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Would it help you to understand me if I suddenly sat up and said I have chosen to be a gurl?
Would that make sense to you?
I am not. But could I be?
Yes. I could ditch the balls and the attitude in a moment. To be like one of the many ladies I admire, if they would accept me as such.

I think I need a shrink. Somebody who knows and can analize ever word I have posted for many years.
Am I sick? Am I just expressing my inner kitty? Or am I expressing something deeper than that?

I would love to be a gurl. They are more open and expressive and just more lovable than dudes are.

There are sooooooooooooo many I would love to touch at work , but I am too old and they are too shy.
So it is forever nowhere. Until I die and then the Lord can answer some questions for me.

LA's fine, but it ain't mine.
And I ain't been the kind for living alone.
Thank God I have cats.
I would be insane alone without them.

My life could be steered by what I read here today and tomorrow.
Choose you words kindly and carefully, please, for they are my future.

And as the song goes, please, please..................
I want to be HER...I am not attracted to him. K, I just want to be her.
[url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7lShqpv3i24] I repeat, I am NOT attracted to him.;...not in the slightest.
But to be her.......to be able to move like that. To hear her heart beat. That, I wish to feel as a woman.

And now I go to bed with the kitties and dream like she may. Can you, any of you ladies, tell me what it is to be you?

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

IF I had met JJ a year later, I would have taken her.
As it was, I was not sure of my sexuality, and she took me down.
She pounded me into her bed. And took me.
And then I had to get on the bus to go back home.
She was too angry to even give me her phone number.
Her words were " You come here, take me, and you leave ME???'
I shall hate you forever.................................."
And she never forgave me.

You would never have heard JJ and the Blackhearts if I had turned back.
Guess fate made the better choice.
Or not.........My life surely would have been been better with Joan Marie Larken as my wife.
Life has a way, as they say.
If I had MY way, she would have been barefoot and pregnant for coming on 40 years now.
And loved as no other on this planet.
And our kids would be chasing the musical charts.
And I would be chasing her tail every day, not Seti's.

WOW. what a dream. What a dream.

Now you know................the rest of the story.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Yes, it does, Joan.
I was willing to give you all, and you rejected me as not good enough.
Now, we have both suffered enough I think.
Come back now, baby. Come back to me.

Time to meet and greet while we are both still alive, Joan.

I have tried for years now to contact you, to no avail. Your effing turn now. I am done trying.
Please? Before either of us dies? Could you suffer it long enough to say you still love me?
Or even just to say get lost?

It would be a shame for us to part life on bad terms. It's already been far too long.'
I waited for you...............as I said I would. Joan, I never married. I was always waiting for YOU.
I was always waiting for you.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

I chose a half measure, when I should have gone all the way.
The answer came loud and clear to me, very very many years too late.
Hope it's not too late for somebody.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Extended version. A few of the same quotes, there are only so many of his to go around.
But some new footage as well.
Mike was a friend of mine. We spoke with common terms. We understood each other.
We killed people for a living. He met his end. I shall meet mine. And we both need to talk one day again.
And we shall.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

I am done here now. Just for now/
I do know Billy Joel as well./
meow..........

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....
Now THIS does not happen every day.
I bought a used Citizen Eco Drive watch on ebay.
A kinda unusual one, because it has a red dial face.
Here it is....
The seller happens to be a pawn shop.
Had a message this morning asking me to call them, so I figured they had a problem.
They did.
They said they could not find the watch, it was either misplaced or stolen.

Instead of simply cancelling the transaction, they ordered me a BRAND NEW copy of the very same watch and are shipping it directly to me. Dunno exactly what the thing is worth, as it does not appear on the Citizen website, and there is not another like it on ebay, but the cheapest Eco Drives with a stainless steel band are 2 or 3 times what I paid.
I suspect they either broke even or maybe took a small hit on this deal.

Meow!

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Meowing over to Lori's for the evening.
Another pizza and Game of Thrones night.

Meow for now.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

I like Game of Thrones.
I am looking forward to season 7, which will be nothing but excellent.

Steve

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Crunching as a member of GPU Users Group.
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I like Game of Thrones.
I am looking forward to season 7, which will be nothing but excellent.

Steve

I have never seen it.
Lori, her sister, and brother in law have, but it's been so long that they are enjoying watching it over, because they have forgotten so much of the early seasons.
We finished season 2 tonight.
I am pretty much hooked on it now too.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

You do not really know, now do you?
Am I a guy? Am I a gurl?

Not any of you knows for sure.

And some days, I do not even.

I recently had my hair turned blond from brunette.
I am loving it.
I really am.
And,. as my hair grows really fast, am wondering about the next do.
I think I might like it a little more bright yellow tone, more actual blonde.

What do ya think?

I am liking life as a blonde.
Has brought me many comments, almost 99 percent positive.

I hit 60, and it has not slowed me down.

Meow.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster