Mark, it takes a man to admin [sic] when he is wrong. For that, I commend you. Seems there are fewer and fewer these days who are willing to stand up and admit when they're wrong.

Bull. Learned to do that around age 5. Second, one admission is good, maybe a second. Third and beyond? Maybe something's being missed?

To the Canadian's. Having been born just the other side of the St. Lawrence River, and having lived in northern states for 37 of 45 years, I reserve the right to go on aboot posting as I like and am an honorary user of "eh". :)

Mark, it takes a man to admin when he is wrong. For that, I commend you. Seems there are fewer and fewer these days who are willing to stand up and admit when they're wrong.

I think I can generally speak for the mods and say none of them enjoy hiding and locking. Made me feel bad the last time. Please understand that you are still welcome, but please learn from this to back off the keyboard when your mind starts to race. We've all had life experiences and it feels good to vent every once in a while, but there are more appropriate places to vent than in here. I'm a new Guy, so I'm giving you full benefit of the doubt.

So get up, dust yourself off, use this as a learning experience and keep them kitties fed and them rigs crunching!

I am attempting to do that right now.
And, as a mod, you do NOT have to excuse or apologize yourself for doing what you are tasked to do. If some like myself did not get out of line, your services would not be required, would they?

Many years ago, I would rail and complain against any and all attempts to moderate my speech. I think anybody that has been around for long enough could give me credit for less mod bashing in the last few years. I understand that you are here for a reason, and at times, I am it.

I may get upset about being called out, but mostly realize lately that there is dang good reason for it.

The 'planet I live on' may very well be a distant place from where most of you reside. But, it is where I live. It is where I have to put up my struggle to survive.
Some do not realize the day to day strength it takes for some of us just to get out of bed each day and face that day's tasks. And these are very true undertakings for some of us. Every day. It wears us down. And so, once in a while, we snap, because we just don't know any other way to release the pent up spring that has been wound so tight over time.
That would be me.

I would hope that some could take these few moments of lucidity that I have right now in the vein in which they are intended. My brain chemicals seldom align correctly these days.
I have achieved something that has eluded me for years. Top Seti user.
You do not know how I have yearned and struggled to achieve this goal over the years. OCD......I had to just try to be the best. Every time I got close, somebody took the crown.

I stand here now, and look over the edge. And realize that the quest was not quite what I made it to be after all these years.

I must turn around now, and walk away from the edge.
And hope there is still somebody willing to put their arm around my shoulder as I cry.

Meow.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Top Seti User
Top Seti User for Death Threats
Top Seti User for Drunken Tirades
Top Seti User for Arrogance
Top Seti User for Excuses
Top Seti User for Meaningless Apologies
Top Seti User for Foul Language
Top Seti User for Racism
Top Seti User for Bigotry
Top Seti User for Thinking He is A Bad A$$
Top Seti User for Times Quit Smoking and Restarted
Top Seti User for Banishments
Top Seti User for Post Deletions
Top Seti User for...........................almost Everything.

Corn 'it'

I take exception to a few on the list.
I am not a racist nor a bigot.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

What you don't quite realize is that I know and understand things that somehow you do not.
If that offends you, so be it.

I can personally tell you that the speed of light limit is simple bull.

I have been able to be able to cross that limit forever.

I do it every single day. I pass back and forth between worlds not known by you every single day.
I have that ability. Few beings do.
The movie kpax was not such a stretch as some of you believe it to be.
I do what your simple dramatists suppose to think they know.
I can and do bend time to my whim.
And if you cannot accept that, it might astound you what I know.

Einstein had it wrong. Light is a bit slow in my reality. Light was not known as the speed limit in reality. Light is so slow.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

And what I sense........
When I finally leave this place, is I shall be missed.
I cannot remain here forever.
I have things that require me to be in other places at other times.
I cannot remain here. I cannot stay.

I have to cross beyond certain destinies at certain times to accomplish certain assigned tasks.
This is my destiny and I cannot expect you to understand.

It is something I just inexplicably have to do and fulfill.
I have no choice.

I shall, however, return in a few of your earth years and try to tell you where I have been.

Until then, I leave you with my love.
Because even aliens know this sentiment.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

One day, you might understand.
Every mistake you make you will have to endure again and again and again.

I have tried to explain.
You are not listening.

Next time, perhaps.
Maybe next time through your universe, you might be a little ready to accept me.
Or maybe it shall take a few more light cycles.
I'll be here when you are ready.

Meow.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

What you don't quite realize is that I know and understand things that somehow you do not.
If that offends you, so be it.

I can personally tell you that the speed of light limit is simple bull.

I have been able to be able to cross that limit forever.

I do it every single day. I pass back and forth between worlds not known by you every single day.
I have that ability. Few beings do.
The movie kpax was not such a stretch as some of you believe it to be.
I do what your simple dramatists suppose to think they know.
I can and do bend time to my whim.
And if you cannot accept that, it might astound you what I know.

Einstein had it wrong. Light is a bit slow in my reality. Light was not known as the speed limit in reality. Light is so slow.

Umm...no. Put very simply. You're a self-admitted alcoholic who has an admirable job working on Fire equipment with a bunch of computers who has a fascination for cats and an extreme flare for the dramatic.

That's what you are.

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What you don't quite realize is that I know and understand things that somehow you do not.
If that offends you, so be it.

I can personally tell you that the speed of light limit is simple bull.

I have been able to be able to cross that limit forever.

I do it every single day. I pass back and forth between worlds not known by you every single day.
I have that ability. Few beings do.
The movie kpax was not such a stretch as some of you believe it to be.
I do what your simple dramatists suppose to think they know.
I can and do bend time to my whim.
And if you cannot accept that, it might astound you what I know.

Einstein had it wrong. Light is a bit slow in my reality. Light was not known as the speed limit in reality. Light is so slow.

Umm...no. Put very simply. You're a self-admitted alcoholic who has an admirable job working on Fire equipment with a bunch of computers who has a fascination for cats and an extreme flare for the dramatic.

That's what you are.

That's what I represent to you because I wish to.

I have different lights that I shine on different people at different times for different reasons.

You have seen a few of them, Blurf.

They are all not the same for all at all the time.
I admit only those I wish to for small amounts of my time.

Mine has expired for this time. I have to travel on.
This might explain.

Next light cycle, should some of you still be here...........
I'll do better.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

"You are only as good as your last game!"
Wayne Gretzky


I say always try to be at your best.

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Now the kitties can mine for BOINC cash ...
http://boinc.berkeley.edu/dev/forum_thread.php?id=8674
How soon before we can send BOINC coins for a donation?

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"You are only as good as your last game!"
Wayne Gretzky


I say always try to be at your best.

Oh, my game's still at it's best.
The best the rest of you seem to be able to muster is to laugh and throw stones at somebody who knows more than you do and posts a few truths that happen to be impolite and more knowledgeable than you can muster.

I rest my case.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

So, just what am I then?

Lord of Light?
Hardly that.

Prince of darkness?
No, I don't command that realm either.

Try again?

Court jester?
Now that comes closer than either of the first two estimates.

One of my mentors, Carlin, had an album entitled 'Class Clown'.
That might almost work.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

So, just what am I then?

Lord of Light?
Hardly that.

Prince of darkness?
No, I don't command that realm either.

Try again?

Court jester?
Now that comes closer than either of the first two estimates.

One of my mentors, Carlin, had an album entitled 'Class Clown'.
That might almost work.

Town drunk.

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David
Sitting on my butt while others boldly go,
Waiting for a message from a small furry creature from Alpha Centauri.

You think I am a mind f..k.

Go to youtube.
Boot up 'Dogma'.
That will blow your socks off more than anything I can do.
It is just so amazingly whacked that I cannot say or do anything to compare.

And yes, that is Matt Damon.


Enjoy the ride.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Now, no matter what has transpired in the last few days, I still think I am a sane man.

This movie is starting to make we wonder.

I have my faith in Jesus Christ, but good Lord, this film makes one wonder.
And I realize that it is a spoof.

But it cuts so close to the quick that it gets scary real at times.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

In all the words of the bible.......

I had just composed and almost posted my thoughts on the subject.
I delete them just in time.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

You see, one of the drawbacks to being a martyr, is one has to die.

I have not yet, and have no intention of doing so any time soon.

That is in my Lord's hands.

Not mine, not yours.

I have a bit of faith that he wants to keep me around to antagonize you for just a bit longer.
Please endure if you can.

I have been sent here to give you trials.
I have been sent here to give you at times grief.
Sharing my own with you.
I have been sent here to be your antichrist, your thief of souls, your anger, your grief.
I am at all times every single one of your sins, your common grief, your failings.

I am everything that you are. And you shall never escape that.
I was sent here to give you some relief from your sins.
I was sent here to give you respite from yourselves.
Which I know you desire so dearly.
I was sent here to give you hope, which you so badly need.
I would not call myself Christ, as that would be way too too self serving.

I would, however, call myself your saviour.
As that is what I can be if you wish it dearly enough.

I can lead you to a far better place than you now know.
Such places exist on other planes than you now realize.
I live on them, and can take your there, if you would only allow me to.
I speak of kpax, and you ridicule me.
I spend a lot of time there, and wish you could join me.

This is not just a place in time that I speak of for fun.
It is a place I have been to. A place I live in.
A place I wish you could join me in.

You all think me a fantasist. Separating myself from your reality to mine.
I suggest nothing could be further from the truth. My reality is yours.
I suspend nothing to go there. Because I live it. I AM it.
I exist there every moment of every day I breath.
When you let go of what you have been taught from birth, it's really quite easy to understand what you are made of and where you came from.
And that is not where some of you think you are from.

The simple particles of mass that became what you and I are now........
Call them God particles...
They did not just come into existence from nowhere.
God crafted them very carefully.
Every instance of your being was created by Him.
Every spark of human existence was created by Him.

All that you know and think you believe was created by Him.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

You are not a martyr-you are not a time traveller. Please get off your delusional train.

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You are not a martyr-you are not a time traveller. Please get off your delusional train.

Delusional...........
Define delusional.
One who does not believe as you do?
One who comes from another place than you do?
Your thoughts do not conform with theirs?
That makes the other delusional?

I simply am assured that I come from a different place and time than you do, Blurf.

If that makes me different than you are, so be it.

I am also in a different time dimension than you are.
Accept that, please.

These are very hard things to try to explain to those that find them hard to accept in the first place, and I frankly am getting tired of trying to
I cannot explain things anymore to people that will not accept them.
My patience has worn out.

You do not wish to accept the fact the I come from another planet...........
OK........that seems to be beyond your ability to grasp.

Now......how about if I just said that I come from another time zone.
Would that be easier to accept?
I can make it easier for you.

I really have exhausted my patience with your planet.
No, I am not going to try to kill you or anything like that.
I am just going to go away and leave to to continue to ponder your existance for another few millenium.

I will then return and see what you have accomplished then.

Meow for now.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster